Dairy Overdose

Jennifer’s younger sister turned 14 yesterday and our dairy free diet suffered a bit.  Olive Garden for lunch (cream sauce), Cold Stone with Sister during shopping trip, and Chocolate Mousse for dessert with family.  Jen ended up throwing up shortly after she went to bed last night….dairy definitely doesn’t agree with her.  Thank goodness for Whole Foods and the dairy free cheese and butter we bought a few days ago.  Jen is all for the dairy free plan and we’ll start to be more careful about what she eats. 

I’m anxiously awaiting the visit with the Naturopath on the 21st.  I know that getting tested for food intolerance and having the guidance for adding supplements is crucial to Jen’s health improvement.  Until then, I’ll continue to do what I can to include a whole food diet and eliminate anything that may cause problems for her.


Our first visit to Whole Foods

Jennifer and I enjoyed our first trip to Whole Foods Market today.  Because we’re a cheese loving family, I was concerned the dairy free diet, recommended by other Gardasil injured families, was going to be difficult for Jen.  A trip to Whole Foods was crucial!  We ended up finding a Soy Parmesan in a bag, and were even offered a sample before we purchased.  It was perfect!  We ended up picking up a non dairy butter as well.  What a relief that Jen can still enjoy some aspects of her regular diet.  I can’t wait to go back and explore the rest of the store.

Bedtime Blues

Bedtime seems to be the hardest time for Jennifer.  She regularly complains that her heart is racing and she feels anxious about the possibility of having a heart attack.  Last night, she was also dealing with abdominal pains and the same chronic headache on the right side of her head.  She asked me to cuddle with her for a while, and told me she feels safe when I hold her.  I couldn’t help but feel shame at the fact that it was ME who gave the Doctor the OK to inject her.  Jennifer never even had a choice…I will never let this happen again.  I hate seeing her so miserable and knowing it was my decision that has caused her months of pain and misery.  Since discovering the link between the Gardasil vaccine and her chronic illness, I haven’t had a day without tears of regret.  My heart is broken. 

I can’t wait for the day when Jen can go to sleep at night without worry or pain.

Moving Forward

Jennifer has been doing great with the addition of the Cilantro Pesto on a daily basis.  She is now taking liquid vitamin D, sublingual Vitamin B12, probiotics, Fish oil, and vitamin e to support her immune system.  I’ve also taken the advice offered by other parents who have introduced purified bottled water such as Smart Water and Fiji Water.  I’m working on replacing Jennifer’s hygiene products to all natural products and will also do an overhaul on the household cleaning products to make sure we’re using non toxic products.  We have an appointment on April 21 with Dr. Dramov, a Naturopath in Tigard, Oregon.  Jen is totally committed to doing whatever it takes to overcome the illness that has plagued her body since 2009.  I am feeling optimistic, or at least comforted, by knowing that I’m doing something to help her feel better.

How We Got Here

My 15 year old, high functioning Autistic daughter Jennifer has been chronically ill since October of 2009, one month after her last Gardasil shot.  We’ve spent the last year visiting our primary care, seeing specialists, and struggling through trips to the lab for blood work.  With all tests normal, and no valuable information from specialists, we’ve continued on hopelessly, dealing with the chronic headaches, abdominal pains, low-grade fever, dizziness, chronic fatigue, nausea, chronic vaginal itching and discharge, and rapid heart beat. 

 I had never considered Gardasil as a cause for her chronic illness, why should I, a vaccine means protection, right?  Over the past year, Jennifer’s primary care would continually see us for the same symptoms, and every time, we would come up with everyday reasons for the complaints Jennifer was having.  Upset stomach, must be constipated, headache, maybe her hormones or diet, dizziness and blurry vision, maybe too much time on the computer, chronic low-grade fever, no clue, chronic fatigue, she’s a teenager, vaginal itching, yeast infection???  You get the idea.  I would eliminate foods, encourage her to get more sleep, and spend less time on the computer, and of course, stocked up on feminine products to help ease that discomfort.  Needless to say, we’ve had an exhausting year trying to keep up with basic health maintenance. 

 It wasn’t until I had heard of the daughter of a family friend who had been suffering similar symptoms, missed several months of school, and was diagnosed with Mono, with all tests being negative.  What could be a commonality between these two girls?  For some reason, I thought of Gardasil and went home and searched the Internet for information.  I was shocked to discover that thousands of other girls were also struggling with the same symptoms, and worse.  How did I allow this to happen?   I never gave it a second thought, vaccine means safety and protection, why would I ever consider that to have caused my daughter so much misery.  I continued to research and became sick to my stomach about how much pain and suffering has needlessly continued. 

 Now what?  Gather documentation!  I called her primary care and requested copies of all of her office visit chart notes and vaccine schedule.  Sure enough, the evidence was there, Jennifer started visiting the doctor regularly after her last Gardasil injection, and has not been well since.  Every office visit indicates the reason for visit, which all coincide with the most common long-term adverse reactions.  

So here we are, beginning this journey of recovery, after tireless hours of research into what can be done to heal the body from the toxins we injected.  Appointments made with Naturopath and Physical Therapists.  Nutritional supplements, whole food diet, eliminating dairy and gluten, drinking purified water, Cilantro Chelation Pesto, and becoming aware of household items that could cause further damage to Jennifer’s system.  I know this journey will be challenging, but I will not turn back.  My heart is heavy with guilt for causing this pain for my daughter, and I’ll do everything in my power to make it right.