Bedtime seems to be the hardest time for Jennifer. She regularly complains that her heart is racing and she feels anxious about the possibility of having a heart attack. Last night, she was also dealing with abdominal pains and the same chronic headache on the right side of her head. She asked me to cuddle with her for a while, and told me she feels safe when I hold her. I couldn’t help but feel shame at the fact that it was ME who gave the Doctor the OK to inject her. Jennifer never even had a choice…I will never let this happen again. I hate seeing her so miserable and knowing it was my decision that has caused her months of pain and misery. Since discovering the link between the Gardasil vaccine and her chronic illness, I haven’t had a day without tears of regret. My heart is broken.
I can’t wait for the day when Jen can go to sleep at night without worry or pain.